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I Will Love You
by Shawn

Disclaimer: I don't own Everwood. But, that would be neat if I did.
Summary: "I need you."
Distibution: If you actually like this, sure.
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Season 1-ish, into Season 2
Dedication: For Elise. My Joey, my Amy, my Liz. My rock, my angel. I love you more than anything.

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I don't know what to say. The hurt in her eyes, the pain that she feels. It kills me. She deserves happiness... more than anyone.

Snow was beginning to fall on the frozen ground. No one in sight, not a sound heard as the snow collects over Everwood. It was eerie. Amy beside me, sitting on the cold wooden bench. She stares, blankly down. She thinks about Colin. Her hair falling in front of her face as she lifts her hands up, resting her head in them. She's so beautiful.

Amy's drained. Emotionally, and physically. She lets out a sigh. Her breath visible in the cold Colorado air.

I don't know what to say to her. For so long I've wanted to tell her so many things... so many things. But, I can't right now. She misses her Colin, and I can't tell her these things that I have been dying to tell her, since... forever. I can't tell her how beautiful and amazing that she is. I can't tell her that I can't stop thinking about her. I can't tell her the way she makes me feel everytime I see her, the knots that I get in my stomach, how my heart skips a beat, ... how she takes my breath away.

I know that nothing I say can fill her void, heal her heart, right now. Maybe in time, but not right now. The loss that she feels, the pain beneath the surface... I can see it in her eyes. I can see the pain in her eyes. That's when it hurts the most. I feel so helpless. I feel that nothing I do can pick her up, and I want nothing more. Nothing more. To see her smile, to see that look in her eyes of "I'm okay." ... It'll be worth it. It'll all be worth it. To see her happy again.

"I should get home.", she says.

She sits up, glancing at me. She looks back down. I could see that look in her eyes. That look of the world closing in around her. That look that breaks my heart.

I don't want her to be alone. But, at the same time, I know that's what she wants.

"Ok.", I utter.

She looks over at me.

"I'll walk you home.", I say.

"You don't have to.", she replies.

"I want to."

She nods, looking down, visibly shivering, shaking. A tear escapes her eye, rolling down her cheek. She's crying. Burying her head in her hands. I can hear her.

My heart aches. My soul aches.

I take off my jacket and throw it around her, wrapping my arms around her and pulling her close to me. She clings to me, burying her head in my chest. Crying. I wrap my arms around her, and hold her tight, kissing the top of her head. I can feel her heart beating. I never want to let go.

"I can't do this." she cries out.

"Amy..." I say, closing my eyes, letting out a sigh. "You don't have to do this alone."

It sounds as if she's gasping for air. She holds on to me tight. Her tears soak my shirt.

"It's ok to cry." I say. "It's ok."

I can feel all of the sadness, and anger coming out of her. All of the things that she shoved down after Colin's death. All of the things she was afraid that the world would see. All of these things coming out as she rests here in my arms.

I hear her, finally trying to slow down her breathing. Trying to regain her composure. Resting her head against me, she takes a couple of deep breaths. Still shaking in my arms.

She slowly pulls back, and looks up at me. I can see the rest of our lives in her eyes, I get lost in them. I wipe the tears off of her face, still looking into her eyes. Those beautiful eyes. Eyes that I would do anything to see for the rest of my life.

What do I do now? Do I say something? Do I give her a hug? Do I dare kiss her?

She slowly leans her head on my shoulder. And, I get that feeling. That feeling in my heart. That feeling deep down in my soul. That feeling that I get with just the thought of Amy. That feeling that's worth living for. Love. True love.

I take her hand, placing it in mine. God, I wish that the world would stop right now. I wish I could freeze this moment forever, and ever.

My love resting here with me. Her cold hand lay in mine. I slowly turn my head up. Looking towards the sky. The snow falling in my face. The cold breeze blowing in my hair. I smile. Smile towards the skies. Smile towards the heavens. Just feeling this moment, just like this. It's beautiful.

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